Menjelang Viva Voce

Td pg after meeting ngan boss, boss decide to have 2 mock viva for me, before the real one approaching. I'm being told to prepare the presentation slide around 25 slides. Wpun sgt nervous sebenarnya, tp harungi sajalah :0 Wish me luck ya! Ya Allah permudahkanlah jalan perjuangan ku ini, Amin.

Something to look back

Akan menjadi kenangan manis suatu hr nanti T___T

Centre for Disaster Resilience

My son asked

My son asked 'Mum, y u looked bz n still going to the office? u said your work is done'.
Me, 'yup my report is complete, but now I need to prepare for the oral examination. Remember that I've told you last time, I will have 2 brilliant Professor asked me everything about my work, then I need to defence myself, u know... like a lawyer present a good case so that he/she will win the case. That is why I'm so busy to prepare for the case (oral exam)'
He asked some more 'what is the thing that u need to prepare exactly mum?'
Me, 'I need to prepare 100 anticipated Questions from the examiner, and provide the answers'.
He said ' That is a LOT!!!'
Me, ' Yes'.
He asked 'so how long it will take, for u to do that mum'
Me, 'I hope I can complete it within a week (sambil gelak2 bengong)'.

Tibe2, aku rs cam tak cukup masa n at the same time mls pulak nk pecahkan kepala pikiaq jwpn2 kpd soklan2 yg telah pun aku listkan pg td :) wa!!!!!

Lain padang, lain belalang

Ada seorg kwn bertanya, 'what u will reward yourself when u've succeed in your PhD'?
lidah terkelu otak sedikit blurr nak jwb, sbb mmg tade apa2 plan nak reward apa2 to myself, cume ada minta some 'thing' sentimetel value from bucuk, itu ajer, honestly'
yg lain2 cume pk apa nk reward hubby, anak2 n mak abah. rs mcm kalau aku berjaya kelak, kejayaan tu semua adalah milik mereka, tanpa mrk... PhD ini takkan berhasil. aku takkan mampu......... (mode: sgt terharu n air mata bergenang)
mmg sejak dulu aku suka pentingkan org2 yg aku syg, jd bile aku rs mrk byk berkorban, terluka, terasa sepanjang perjalanan aku menuntut ilmu, aku rs hanya dgn memastikan mrk semua gembira akan membuatkan aku tersenyum puas.
Flashback>>> aku bermula dr bwh, diploma, kerja.....n taking part time degree, n.....then...part time master , n...now... I'm doing PhD, here...in England land, satu2nya suasana yg tak terbayangkan. Ya Allah besarnya Rahmat, banyaknye nikmatMU buat aku yg penuh dosa ini. Tru bad n good things, u brought the good from me, I realised..... Alhamdulillah, TQ Allah for your love n everything.

24.03.2011

Sesungguhnya penantian kali ini adalah satu debaran yg amat kuat dirasakan. Tiada kata2 yg boleh menggambarkan betapa cemas dan risau memikirkan.
Hanya doa yg mampu dipanjatkan moga Allah Sang Maha Pengasih, Maha Penyayang, Maha Kuasa, Maha Pengampun dapat memberikan ku ketenangan, kekuatan, kecekalan hati dan kelapangan dada. Moga apa yg bakal diharungi mendapat keredhaanMU Ya Allah, Amin.

1st submission

Alhamdulillah syukur atas nikmat dan rahmat Allah. Sekarang sedang menunggu tarikh hari perbicaraan akan berlangsung. Jd skrg ini perasaan sy adalah sgt2 takut, berdebar2, tak keruan, camx confident pun ader, n.... cam nak jerit kuat2 bole? x mau tulis pjg2, lets the picture tell the story >__<

Progress update

Oleh krn bos dah bg green light to prepare for submission, jd semlm aku berulang alik dr tempat2 binding yg murah dan ke office utk mendapatkan kebenaran agar cara binding di tempat selain dr Salford Uni boleh diterima utk 1st submission for viva. Akhirnya, penat lelah aku & hubby berbaloi bile admin kata PG office say the copy that I've shown them is alright for submission. Banyak jimat dr £29 jadi £4.50. Scholl2 lain kebanyakkannya student x perlu bayar, school/faculty cover, tp school aku mmg tak cover tulah pasal sibuk mencari kesana sini. Akhirnya ke 'UPrint' at Manchester Uni student Union jugak yg murah, kalau final binding for hardboud pun murah jugak less than £30 tp kalau kat Salford Uni £40++ .
Aku ada ler amik gambar utk tunjuk beza antara £29 punye copy ngan £4.50 punye copy, tp tak tau le boleh nampak jelas tak dalam gambar, cer tgk :)


yg year 2010 tu senior aku punye, yg aku punye tu yg £4.50 nyer version, ok apa, kan ^___^ yelah kenalah cr yg murah sbb nak buat 4 copy, 3 hantar kat PG office satu pulak utk boss, kalau setakat satu je tak kisah le byr mahal pun.

So, hr ni aku nk hantar lg 3 utk binding, next Monday InsyaAllah Boss masuk opis boleh le minta sign dia utk submit, moga2 Allah memperkenankan doa aku, suami, anak2, mak abah, kwn2 agar aku dpt peluang utk viva sblm balik end of next month, Amin.

Email from boss

Hr ni dpt email dr boss, kami berbalas2 email, maleh nak citer psl content email tu. Cumenye info yg paling penting ialah, bos masuk office 21 Mac, so paling cepat boleh submit to PG office ialah pd tarikh tu sbb boss kena sign form for submission. Jd kami berdua pun mencongak2 dr Plan A ke Plan B, bos tanye bile paling lewat nak balik Msia, aku kata at the latest end of April itu jer, dia pun ckp kena tgk le camne, kalau examiner ada ms n sempat nk baca ada lah peluang nak viva sebelum balik.
Apa yg boleh dibuat sekarang hanya berdoa, kerana hanya Allah jualah yg memegang segala sesuatu, semoga Allah mencukupkan masa yg terhad ini bagiku menyelesaikan urusanku, Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.

Rasa macam....???

Bile tgk news sana perang...sinun tsunami.... mcm2 lg yg berlaku sejak 2 menjak nih, aku rasa mcm PhD ni bukan le apa2 sgt pun, yg nak stress bagai tak berbaloi. Cer tengok org2 lain yg tgh menghadapi peperangan & bencana alam tu, lagi hebat dugaan dan tekanan yg mrk hadapi, yet...life still go on. Salute!!!!

Ya Allah terima kasih atas segala nikmat dan rahmatMU kpd kami. TQ Allah....Alhamdulillah.

Update!

Setelah beberapa lama menyepi krn kebizian dan juga krn mencari kembali kekuatan, hr ni aku update entry.
Last Sunday, my proof reader given all 3 final chapters until 1.30am on Monday morning. As a result, I'm working 12 hours staright on Sunday till 12.30midnight and continue work the next day. Petang Isnin tu balik dlm kul 4 lebih coz dlm kul 6 nak g berguru ngan member utk buat autogenerated pages, table & figure caption. Oleh krn ada masalah teknikal sampai kul 10.30 mlm pun keje2 tu gagal dilaksanakan.
Aku yg frust ni sambung keje balik Selasa pg, try to do it manually, but Alhamdulillah berkat doa anak2 pg tu yg mengharapkan mama mrk pulang awal sbb hari amik report work, akhirnya ada pertolongan yg tak disangka2. Sape lagi, kalau bukan mamat gadget kat opis aku yg dtg sekali sekala, setelah hampir sejam setengah menggodek akhirnya masalah heading 1 -4 yg nak dibuat autogenerated pages tu berjaya diselesaikan. So nasihat aku kpd korg yg nak menulis tu, buat le heading caption tu awal2 jgn buat last minit mcm aku, bile 7 file nak combine jd satu file kelam kabut auto heading tu nak baca pastu figure n table byk yg lari.
Tp kesian kat anak2, oleh kerana masalah tu berjaya diselesaikan dlm kul 12.30 noon so aku x sempat nk perbetul semua benda by 3pm, so....mama minta maaf x dpt dtg, mama harap anak2 mama maafkan mama n hope u ols understand kalau tak skrg satu hr nanti maybe.
In the meanwhile, aku pulun siapkan final draft ptg tu jugak sbb dlm kul 4.30 hubby nak amik then g mkn terus ngan anak2. Wpun sebenarnya sangat le kelam kabut tp aku manage utk siapkan without final checking. Tp takpe, ptg tu nak g balik umah Lin (member yg ajar autogenerate page tu) sbb ada sikit lg masalah teknikal. 2 page aku yg landscap yg illustrate framework x rotate. So ptg tu bertapa lg kat umah Lin dr kul 6-8pm. Thanks a lot to Lin, akhirnya semua settle n final draft telah pun diconvert ke PDF b4 I'm sending it to my boss.

And..... punyelah aku plan nak submit before Wednesday supaya boss boleh semak n baca for the final output, then supaya aku ada le peluang utk print, bind n submit by nest week........BUT.... hampa....hampeh pun ader, boss aku tade di sini.......dia berada diluar kawasan (obersea lg...bole?)

So, aku pun tak tau dia balik bile, dan dia pun tade nk bgtau aku apa2, I guess...what I can do now is.........waiting...n....waiting some more. tu lah tu, mcm yg aku tulis kat wall FB aku 'wpun nasib tak menyebelahi aku, namun aku yakin ketentuan dan ketetapan Allah itu adalah yg terbaik untuk aku'. Jd aku kena redha dan berlapang dada, apa2 pun looking forward to flyyyyyy back to Malaysia...end of next month, InsyaAllah.

Busuk2 pun, yg penting submit sebelum balik, kalau tak sempat viva, esok mai le balik utk viva, kan....kan...

2 b fair with Neil :)

Hi Siti,

Here is Chapter 5. There are a lot of corrections, but please do not get disheartened.

The 2nd read-through took 2 hours!

I'm now working on Chapter 6 and will update you this afternoon.

Regards,

Neil

note: tq so much Neil! really appreciate it ^___^

Neil Oh Neil...

Janji by Saturday dia nk bg all 3 finale chapters. yg aku ni beria sabtu ahad ni siap ckp ngan bucuk jgn buat apa2 xtiviti reserve utk I, tup...tup pg ahad ni br dpt email dr Neil, dia kata dah siap baca Chapter 5 tp kena baca final through lg sekali sbb byk repeated correction dlm table anaylis, so tak tau ler? harap2 sblm noon boleh le dia bg, so boleh le aku utilise hari Ahad ni boleh keje sampai malam sbb bucuk mmg tak keje. Xpelah...semua ni dah tertulis, aku dah usaha, mungkin inilah yg terbaik, biar lambat...asalkan produce yg terbaik.
Pastu dia kata lg both finale chapter by tomorrow, Ya Allah! boleh ke aku nk siapkan before Tuesday ni complete ngan correction yg aku akan submit balik to Neil. Sesungguhnya masa sgt2 mencemburui aku, hai...hai...hai...

Ya Allah, tiada daya usaha aku melainkan berdoa dan bertawakkal kepadamu, Amin,

03.03.2011

Alhamdulillah, agak dah... @ 0013 dpt email dr Mr. Neil for chapter 4, dia promised lg katanye by Saturday he will completed all the chapters. So by Sunday I can send back to him the sentences that I've corrected/rewrite ^___^ lega....
Basically tinggal satu je lg chapter yg besar iaitu Chapter 5, n the last two chapter will be less than 20 pages each.
Kalau korang nak tau, apa yg Mr. Neil offer as a proof reader, ni le yg dia cover, check it out!

*note: aku copy paste jek dr emel dia :)

A technical note

At the moment your proofed chapters are being saved as 'Microsoft Word 2007' documents with MS Word '97 and 2003 compatibility. Just let me know if this causes a problem, and I will save them differently as requested.

About the use of notes when correcting

I've begun using the 'notes' feature when proof reading text. The idea is that minor corrections or observations which are hopefully helpful to you (e.g. explaining a single-word type of correction) can be inserted quickly as notes in the margin of your original text (in a different colour), to explain why I've done something.

Comments and corrections for larger passages of text (e.g. comments about a whole sentence) will go onto a separate 'comments sheet' as usual.

If you have a preference etc and I will adjust.

itu je, proofing n editing.

2nd March 2011

last night kul 0023 dpt email dr prof reader utk 1 chapter, so hr ni pulun 9-5 siapkan keje2 correction sbb kesian kat budak2 kang kena tumpang umah sape plak sbb abi depa nak g keje ptg. Alhamdulillah, siap jugak so dpt lah pulang kerumah. Harap2 mlm ni dpt la lg emel dr Mr. Neil. Apa pun, I dah inform bucuk awal2 yg sabtu ahad ni mungkin kena bertapa kat opis utk siapkan kerja2 yg bakal menanti. Hubby selalunya faham n very supportive, yg siannya anak2 ler, apa nak buat, anak2ku sabar ye, mama submit je kite qadak g nonton movie ke, g round2 ke...apa2 je lah... pastu mama nak kena sambung packing plak!

Dah bulan 3 dah pun, hmmmm

time2 ni lah rs kalau boleh nak berentikan masa, yelah mana taknye, dh time2 ni semuanya nak dikejar, nak wat lagu mana....dah tertulis :) apa pun syukur Alhamdulillah.
Yg rs mcm x cukup ms tu sbb tgh tunggu proof reader punye feedback, setakat hr ni, br 2 chapter yg dah dikembalikan ada 5 lg chapter, busuk2 kena submit mid March boleh lah ada harapan sikit utk viva sblm balik, kalau lewat lg...mmg tade rezekilah, tu yg rs mcm.... kalau lah masa ini boleh diberhentikan utk proof reader bg balik chapter2 tu.... sbb pastu aku nak wat correction nak finalise...nak print, tunjuk kat boss, kalau dia kata OK barulah boleh bind then submit. Nak bind tu pun mkn dua hari tau, pastu kena charga £27 secopy...waduh!!! nak 3 copy, masak duit £ aku
tu jelah setakat today, kalau ada apa2 nanti aku update lg yek.