Now is winter season. Ada banyak benda knp aku sgt tak suke winter, antara lain, bibir pecah, kulit kering dan gatal2, tekak kering, asyik nak ke toilet, sejuksss sampai rs sgt2 mls nak kuar dr bilik beradu. kalau boleh semua benda nak wat dlm bilik atas katil dlm duvet :) bole?
Snow dah 2x turun selebihnya... freezing all days all weeks.... sgt2 sejuk n bored sbb mlm sgt2 pjg. sbb tulah kalau boleh tak nak lagi lalui winter tp Allah lebih mengetahui mengapa aku masih disini. Oleh itu disebalik semua faktor2 negatif ni aku akan cube utk sentiasa berfikiran positif.
PhD isn't everything.... minggu ni je dah 2 berita kematian saudara seIslam yg aku dgr, Innalillah.... Dari Allah kite datang kpd Allah jua kite dikembalikan.
Ya Allah jadikanlah aku manusia yg lebih baik dr semalam. semakin kucube semakin banyak dugaannya, berikanlah ku petunjuk dan hidayahMu Ya Allah dalam ku menjalani hidup diatas dunia yg fana ini, Amin.
Tuesday, 21 December 2010
Wednesday, 15 December 2010
Alahai....BOSS
Punyelah begitu berhati2 nak jaga hati boss kan, ermmm alahai... nak karang email pun dekat setengah jam. Kejap ubah ayat cenggini, kejap ubah ayat cenggitu..... agaknye boss pulak kalau nk sent email 2 min je taip dah siap :)
aku yg selalu resah gelisah, he....
aku yg selalu resah gelisah, he....
15 Dec 2010
Pagi td pegi opis 2 jam, since I'm not getting any feedback yet from proof reader regarding my abstract, I'm out to have lunch date with hubby. At 2.31pm receive email from proof reader complete with comment sheet, with a small note at the bottom of the page,
p/s: sorry to be a pain! oh...Neil! so sweet.
Since I received that email, my mind couldn't stop thinking to correct my abstract, n now...at 4.50pm I've finally got a chance to sit down n do my work after my children has settled down (eating, changing etc.)
Yuk! mule keje!
p/s: sorry to be a pain! oh...Neil! so sweet.
Since I received that email, my mind couldn't stop thinking to correct my abstract, n now...at 4.50pm I've finally got a chance to sit down n do my work after my children has settled down (eating, changing etc.)
Yuk! mule keje!
Tuesday, 14 December 2010
Update!
Firstly, i want to TQ to my fren Aida coz sudi meluangkan masa membaca my 1st draft and bg komen yg sgt2 bagus utk Introduction chapter, as well as abstract.
So, smlm I change my abstract for the 6th time i think, and then come up with the 3rd draft of Introduction chapter.
But, today.... Alhamdulillah, dpt email from my boss saying that she'll giving feedback by Jan 2011. Then, I need to do correction according to her comment, then send to proof read, then do the proof reader correction, then...only I can submit! fuhhh! busy sesangat le gamaknya upcoming new year ni, prepare!!!!
Dah lama tak rs kelam kabut camni, suke tau!
At the same time, I need to prepare an abstract and finalise my thesis title in order to submit the form of 'Notice of Intention' to the PG office.
Toche juger kpd CT Zaleha my fren, yg sudi luangkan masa utk komen abstract aku, n wat kesekian kalinya aku terpaksa ubah abstract aku, n hasilnya kini abstract itu melebihi 300 words but less than 400, same mcm abstract boss ku dlm thesis nye dulu. Tp tak taulah camne, la ni aku br send to proof reader n then, will sent to my boss for her comment on this, b4 we can submit to PG office.
Alhamdulillah, TQ Allah for everything.
Apa pun, sebenarnya aku sgt2 cemas krn tidak tahu nanti berapa banyakkah comment dr boss yg perlu dibuat correction, harap sgt2 minor correction, krn sesungguhnya masa amat mencemburui aku ^___^
So, smlm I change my abstract for the 6th time i think, and then come up with the 3rd draft of Introduction chapter.
But, today.... Alhamdulillah, dpt email from my boss saying that she'll giving feedback by Jan 2011. Then, I need to do correction according to her comment, then send to proof read, then do the proof reader correction, then...only I can submit! fuhhh! busy sesangat le gamaknya upcoming new year ni, prepare!!!!
Dah lama tak rs kelam kabut camni, suke tau!
At the same time, I need to prepare an abstract and finalise my thesis title in order to submit the form of 'Notice of Intention' to the PG office.
Toche juger kpd CT Zaleha my fren, yg sudi luangkan masa utk komen abstract aku, n wat kesekian kalinya aku terpaksa ubah abstract aku, n hasilnya kini abstract itu melebihi 300 words but less than 400, same mcm abstract boss ku dlm thesis nye dulu. Tp tak taulah camne, la ni aku br send to proof reader n then, will sent to my boss for her comment on this, b4 we can submit to PG office.
Alhamdulillah, TQ Allah for everything.
Apa pun, sebenarnya aku sgt2 cemas krn tidak tahu nanti berapa banyakkah comment dr boss yg perlu dibuat correction, harap sgt2 minor correction, krn sesungguhnya masa amat mencemburui aku ^___^
Tuesday, 7 December 2010
The truth
it's been a while now, i'm not getting any feedback from my boss sine my first 2 chapter submission on September. The only email I get from my boss, is an angry mail about doing paper behind boss back, that is fast! honestly, i don't know what my boss really want. I've done that b'coz my last paper that I've try to submit my boss kept it for almost a year, n i react on that. Although a series of apologies had been made and other submission running as usual, other than that, my boss just kept silence.
I don't have a gut to c my boss and asked. i'm hoping there is nothing wrong, it just becoz my boss is extremely busy...i guess, since my boss not in the office so much these days. My boss kind of don't want me to bugging much, so i took the courage to be patience, until it's time...following my boss scheduled like we've been discussed it before.
Plus, i need to stay positive. Pls Allah give me strength. Pray for me, will you?
I don't have a gut to c my boss and asked. i'm hoping there is nothing wrong, it just becoz my boss is extremely busy...i guess, since my boss not in the office so much these days. My boss kind of don't want me to bugging much, so i took the courage to be patience, until it's time...following my boss scheduled like we've been discussed it before.
Plus, i need to stay positive. Pls Allah give me strength. Pray for me, will you?
Friday, 3 December 2010
Training & Meeting
Just want to share with my reader, what kind of training that I attend as a researcher and what is the things that I've discussed in the meeting with my boss.
As for today I've attending 82 various training/short courses/workshops, including conferences.
I'm also had 48 series of meeting/discussions with my boss@SV@Prof.
sape kata sy tak cube? sedey tau :(
As for today I've attending 82 various training/short courses/workshops, including conferences.
I'm also had 48 series of meeting/discussions with my boss@SV@Prof.
sape kata sy tak cube? sedey tau :(
My progress
I sent email to my boss just now, eeiiii scary!!... @__@
email tu berbunyi:
Dear Prof.,
I hope you are fine. As I am progressing in my writing and according to the chapter submission shedule, here I would like to submit 2 files as the following:
1) Chapter 6 - Research Findings
2) Chapter 7 - Conclusions and Recommendations
After this, I will continue writing the Introduction Chapter (Chapter 1) and finalising the appendices to put in the thesis, as well as drafting the abstract.
In the meanwhile, I hope I can have your feedbacks from my earlier chapter submission.
Kind Regards,
Me.
email tu berbunyi:
Dear Prof.,
I hope you are fine. As I am progressing in my writing and according to the chapter submission shedule, here I would like to submit 2 files as the following:
1) Chapter 6 - Research Findings
2) Chapter 7 - Conclusions and Recommendations
After this, I will continue writing the Introduction Chapter (Chapter 1) and finalising the appendices to put in the thesis, as well as drafting the abstract.
In the meanwhile, I hope I can have your feedbacks from my earlier chapter submission.
Kind Regards,
Me.
Wednesday, 1 December 2010
2nd post - Apa itu PhD @ Research
To non academician people, including some of my fren out there x tau apa sebenarnya org2 PhD ni buat. selalu jugak terima soklan mcm... ko tak g kelas ke? aku confuse arr ko kata ko masuk opis tp ko study kan? dan lain2 soklan yg seumpamanya.
Meh aku explain ckit apa itu PhD, like me i'm doing my PhD by doing research, its called PhD by research.
Research ni ialah idea2 baru yg cube dipertengahkan oleh para researcher samada secara group or individu, ala2 mcm nk jd mcm Albert Enstien tu, try n error new things until he succeed. Tapi as a researcher mcm aku ni ada lah method2 yg aku perlu ikuti agar penyelidikan aku tu more towards empirical study, yg mana outputnya boleh diukur dan divalidate n can contribute to something. Jadi...method2 yg diambil sepjg proses research tu pulak hendaklah reliable n trusted sbb aku flw benda2 yg telah dibuktikan secara teori dan praktikal melalui all publication sources and live data experience.
Dan, knp susah utk buat PhD ni dan makan masa normally antara 3-4 years, sbb! kite buat research ni dr idea from scratch, dan kite menggodek segala sumber yg ada utk solidkan idea kite tu. pastu benda yg kite nak buat ni mestilah benda yg betul2 kite jatuh cinta, ko ingat apa beb, ko nak ngadap benda yg sama, pecahkan kepala ko pk siang mlm mcm albert enstein tiap2 hari selama 3-4 tahun. so u have to really make sure that u lovvvveeee the things that u researching. what do u expect? at the end you want people recognised u as an expert, a DR to be precise! :) ha!!! thrill tak thril?
Supervisor (SV) selaku bos kau, mmg diassign oleh Uni tempat ko study utk bantu kau melalui proses utk menjadikan kite sbg seorg researcher yg bertauliah dan diiktiraf, depa pun dah melalui proses yg sama utk dptkan PhD diorg dulu sblm la...diorg tu bergelar Dr ke Prof ke Prof. Madya ke...hapa ke...
Dan mcm biasalah Prof a.k.a boss ni pun hanyalah manusia biasa, jd depa pun ada yg ok, agak2 ok atau KO wakakakaka!!!!
alah....manusia kan mcm2 peelnye :)
Lagi, ko boleh bygkan tak from day one ko buat research ni it is truly a very lonely process, sbb ko akan sorg2 ngadap benda tu selama bertahun2 try to figure out to contribute a very small piece of knowledge into the knowledge vast directory, korang ni boleh faham tak aku citer ni? :) kalau tak fhm, buat2 phm jelah ye...dah nak tau sgt, ni yg aku habaq mai ni.
ko pun duduk le kat opis ko tu, lab ko ke from day one buat penyelidikan sorg2,,,mcm syok sendiri le :) dgn bantuan SV, training2 or courses yg uni sediakan utk train ko mcm mana nk jd researcher yg lebih baik, yelah sbb ko baru venture benda alah ni kan, mana ada experience so kenalah attend training2 yg berkaitan.
Masa berlalu, ko pun tak boleh le nak syok sendiri, ko kena join conference2 atau hantar paper (your convince written idea) supaya org lain boleh tau apa yg ko buat tu, n boleh plak komen benda tu berbaloi tak utk ko buat, atau bgtau ko yg benda tu sebenarnya org dah pernah buat dah tapi ko je yg tak tau...ini biasanya boleh berlaku bile pembacaan awal yg kite buat keatas teori2 tu tak meluas jd kite terlepas pandang, dan ini adalah SGT2 MERBAHAYA! kalau boleh dielakkan ler ye.
Ngeri gak arr kalau 1st timer cam aku ni nak present depan org2 asing ni, cakap oangputih lagi, kan belum lagi time Q&A, yg tu mmg wajib le depa tanya, depa kat cni active audience bukan pasif, mcm2 benda kalau boleh depa nak tanye :)
aku ler, nak phmkan soklan satu hal, nak phmkan slang diorg tu pun satu hal, yelah satu dunia punye org nk ckp English, kdg2 tu bukan native english speaker, korg dpt imagina tak betapa kecutnye perut aku.
Pastu dah upgrade sikit, boleh le cube2 hantar paper ke utk Jurnal Publication yg mana para editor n reviewernya akan go tru paper kite tu sblm depa bersetuju utk publish, kalau depa rs kite ni talk rubbish bulat2 je dia tolak paper tu, depa ni Prof2 yg dah berpengalaman ler :) so...sgt la beshnyer kalau paper kite diterima utk jurnal publications.
Tu jelah for now, penat aku menaip, to be continued....... T___T aku nk titon zzzzz
Meh aku explain ckit apa itu PhD, like me i'm doing my PhD by doing research, its called PhD by research.
Research ni ialah idea2 baru yg cube dipertengahkan oleh para researcher samada secara group or individu, ala2 mcm nk jd mcm Albert Enstien tu, try n error new things until he succeed. Tapi as a researcher mcm aku ni ada lah method2 yg aku perlu ikuti agar penyelidikan aku tu more towards empirical study, yg mana outputnya boleh diukur dan divalidate n can contribute to something. Jadi...method2 yg diambil sepjg proses research tu pulak hendaklah reliable n trusted sbb aku flw benda2 yg telah dibuktikan secara teori dan praktikal melalui all publication sources and live data experience.
Dan, knp susah utk buat PhD ni dan makan masa normally antara 3-4 years, sbb! kite buat research ni dr idea from scratch, dan kite menggodek segala sumber yg ada utk solidkan idea kite tu. pastu benda yg kite nak buat ni mestilah benda yg betul2 kite jatuh cinta, ko ingat apa beb, ko nak ngadap benda yg sama, pecahkan kepala ko pk siang mlm mcm albert enstein tiap2 hari selama 3-4 tahun. so u have to really make sure that u lovvvveeee the things that u researching. what do u expect? at the end you want people recognised u as an expert, a DR to be precise! :) ha!!! thrill tak thril?
Supervisor (SV) selaku bos kau, mmg diassign oleh Uni tempat ko study utk bantu kau melalui proses utk menjadikan kite sbg seorg researcher yg bertauliah dan diiktiraf, depa pun dah melalui proses yg sama utk dptkan PhD diorg dulu sblm la...diorg tu bergelar Dr ke Prof ke Prof. Madya ke...hapa ke...
Dan mcm biasalah Prof a.k.a boss ni pun hanyalah manusia biasa, jd depa pun ada yg ok, agak2 ok atau KO wakakakaka!!!!
alah....manusia kan mcm2 peelnye :)
Lagi, ko boleh bygkan tak from day one ko buat research ni it is truly a very lonely process, sbb ko akan sorg2 ngadap benda tu selama bertahun2 try to figure out to contribute a very small piece of knowledge into the knowledge vast directory, korang ni boleh faham tak aku citer ni? :) kalau tak fhm, buat2 phm jelah ye...dah nak tau sgt, ni yg aku habaq mai ni.
ko pun duduk le kat opis ko tu, lab ko ke from day one buat penyelidikan sorg2,,,mcm syok sendiri le :) dgn bantuan SV, training2 or courses yg uni sediakan utk train ko mcm mana nk jd researcher yg lebih baik, yelah sbb ko baru venture benda alah ni kan, mana ada experience so kenalah attend training2 yg berkaitan.
Masa berlalu, ko pun tak boleh le nak syok sendiri, ko kena join conference2 atau hantar paper (your convince written idea) supaya org lain boleh tau apa yg ko buat tu, n boleh plak komen benda tu berbaloi tak utk ko buat, atau bgtau ko yg benda tu sebenarnya org dah pernah buat dah tapi ko je yg tak tau...ini biasanya boleh berlaku bile pembacaan awal yg kite buat keatas teori2 tu tak meluas jd kite terlepas pandang, dan ini adalah SGT2 MERBAHAYA! kalau boleh dielakkan ler ye.
Ngeri gak arr kalau 1st timer cam aku ni nak present depan org2 asing ni, cakap oangputih lagi, kan belum lagi time Q&A, yg tu mmg wajib le depa tanya, depa kat cni active audience bukan pasif, mcm2 benda kalau boleh depa nak tanye :)
aku ler, nak phmkan soklan satu hal, nak phmkan slang diorg tu pun satu hal, yelah satu dunia punye org nk ckp English, kdg2 tu bukan native english speaker, korg dpt imagina tak betapa kecutnye perut aku.
Pastu dah upgrade sikit, boleh le cube2 hantar paper ke utk Jurnal Publication yg mana para editor n reviewernya akan go tru paper kite tu sblm depa bersetuju utk publish, kalau depa rs kite ni talk rubbish bulat2 je dia tolak paper tu, depa ni Prof2 yg dah berpengalaman ler :) so...sgt la beshnyer kalau paper kite diterima utk jurnal publications.
Tu jelah for now, penat aku menaip, to be continued....... T___T aku nk titon zzzzz
1 Dec 2010
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...
semoga blog seumpamanya ini dapat memberi manfaat kpd reader.
aku terpanggil utk menulis blog ini krn aku merasakan ini adalah satu medium yg terbaik utk mencatatkan perjalanan PhD aku yg telah pun masuk 'tempoh kecederaan'. Kpd yg turut berada dlm bidang reserach ini, tentunya sudah sedia maklum 'tempoh kecederaan' adalah tempoh yg telah melangkaui 3 tahun. Dan selalunya dlm 'tempoh kecederaan' ini semakin bayk pertanyaan ditimbulkan dr kwn2 seperjuangan, ahli keluarga dan juga ..... . Pertanyaan berkaitan, bile nak habis? ko dah submit ke? 1st draft dah siap? bile plan nak submit? dan soklan2 yg seumpamanya.
Bulan ini perjalanan research aku menginjak ke angka 38 bulan. dcni, dblog ini aku ingin berkongsi bagaimana aku boleh terdampar dlm tempoh 'masa kecederaan'. Perkongsian ini bertujuan memberi sedikit idea kpd mrk2 yg kurang fhm knp PhD ini selalunya agak sukar nak complete dlm ms 3 tahun.
Antara sbb2 utama:
setiap satu reserach adalah berbeza, focus area yg berbeza, SV yg berbeza, data yg berbeza, uncontrolled research environment, uncontrolled data environment, even....masalah ekonomi juga boleh memberi impak kpd perjalanan reserach jika seseorang itu menumpukan research dibidang yg berkaitan ekonomi n financial. Long cut short, terlalu byk uncontrolled variables, sbb tulah para researcher ni kena betul2 plan utk minimise all the risks involved.
now we go into specific about my research.
pengajian aku di Salford Uni as a PhD researcher mempunyai 3 stages assessment;
1) Interim Assesment (proposed reserach area)- dlm bulan ke 15-18
2)Internal Evaluation (confirmation to start writing up) - 12 month after the 1st assessment
3) Final Viva Voce (when your SV think u r ready to become an expert)
Penat arr menaip, byk lagi nak kongsi ni, next post ye! kang org kata aku ni tade keje pulak ^___^ ahaks!
semoga blog seumpamanya ini dapat memberi manfaat kpd reader.
aku terpanggil utk menulis blog ini krn aku merasakan ini adalah satu medium yg terbaik utk mencatatkan perjalanan PhD aku yg telah pun masuk 'tempoh kecederaan'. Kpd yg turut berada dlm bidang reserach ini, tentunya sudah sedia maklum 'tempoh kecederaan' adalah tempoh yg telah melangkaui 3 tahun. Dan selalunya dlm 'tempoh kecederaan' ini semakin bayk pertanyaan ditimbulkan dr kwn2 seperjuangan, ahli keluarga dan juga ..... . Pertanyaan berkaitan, bile nak habis? ko dah submit ke? 1st draft dah siap? bile plan nak submit? dan soklan2 yg seumpamanya.
Bulan ini perjalanan research aku menginjak ke angka 38 bulan. dcni, dblog ini aku ingin berkongsi bagaimana aku boleh terdampar dlm tempoh 'masa kecederaan'. Perkongsian ini bertujuan memberi sedikit idea kpd mrk2 yg kurang fhm knp PhD ini selalunya agak sukar nak complete dlm ms 3 tahun.
Antara sbb2 utama:
setiap satu reserach adalah berbeza, focus area yg berbeza, SV yg berbeza, data yg berbeza, uncontrolled research environment, uncontrolled data environment, even....masalah ekonomi juga boleh memberi impak kpd perjalanan reserach jika seseorang itu menumpukan research dibidang yg berkaitan ekonomi n financial. Long cut short, terlalu byk uncontrolled variables, sbb tulah para researcher ni kena betul2 plan utk minimise all the risks involved.
now we go into specific about my research.
pengajian aku di Salford Uni as a PhD researcher mempunyai 3 stages assessment;
1) Interim Assesment (proposed reserach area)- dlm bulan ke 15-18
2)Internal Evaluation (confirmation to start writing up) - 12 month after the 1st assessment
3) Final Viva Voce (when your SV think u r ready to become an expert)
Penat arr menaip, byk lagi nak kongsi ni, next post ye! kang org kata aku ni tade keje pulak ^___^ ahaks!
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